read more heart-wrenchin things.. almost cried. now feel i was so stupid.. i wonder wads in time 2 come.. i dun wanna be stupid, but i wanted to be naive too.. if onli i did not know, or do i wan 2 noe? i wonder wads wrong wit them.. i no longer noe wad is true.. left 2 fend 4 myself? i haf my frens..
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sometimes.. maybe it will become a habit, time will heal? but will it? it seems tt it will 4eva will an imprint, n tt emptiness will alwaes be there.. i noe of such ppl.. they cant be cured. or did they wan 2 be cured? i dun wanna let tt happen..
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after e chat wit yj ytd, felt so happi. realised shes a realy sentimental one.. maybe it has realy become her habit? we were discussin. but, sometimes its hard 2 4get rite? i noe sometimes she still hurt lky hell.. esp. u noe.. so.. we were havin fun tokin abt jerks.. lolz.
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ytd gt 1 guy asked her to go 2 tis webb. she was playin sims2. so she didnt wen. then tt guy asked her, if she gt go. she said YES! but she didnt lolz. then he asked her how was it. n she said it was NICE! n guess wad? tt guy told her its a porn site.-.- suckers.. n she was so embarrassed. she told him it was NICE! but she nvr go c la.. then she kinda blocked him. gd job! ltr she go copy tis webbsite n told a guy to go. n she asked him if it was a porn web. he said yes! lolz. n yj blocked him too, in case he tinks shes sick. she jus wanted to confirm in case she yuan wang hao ren.. but i told her to clarify it lolz.
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we jus felt tt we gers shouldnt be so stupid.. we should be strong eh? hahaz.. n we tok abt a lot. i haf some kinda conclusion but its still blurry..
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* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 11:05 AM