konnichiwa! ehh, btw, realised that physics i add some marks for mcq, so i dun really know wads my total marks. somehow i think my L1R5 will be more than 20, n i think i may flunk english too, judging from what mr white said about our essays. i wonder if mine was considered a message. the topic is just so impt!

i think e gonna get back all our results tomorrow. quite scared, but not too scared too. figured out theres no time for me to be sad about my prelims. O's is still the most paramount one. so i gonna focus on preparations for O's. nowadays practicising maths, but have a bugging feeling that i haven studied much.

looking forward to self study where we can stay at home n study! i think they should let us start self study sooner! i think 13 oct is the grad service, then we can hav self study le! hooray!

gosh gosh gosh i think i dun really hav enough sleep nowadays coz i was watching tv late! but i wanna watch! n i wonder y i like hav so little time. not enough time to watch tv, sleep n study! Jesus help mi!

i re read dairy of a teenage girl. its really a great bk, not to mention the other series further on. yeah, we should read them! gonna focus a lot of O's now! reached a conclusion 2dae, i m responsible for myself. even if i get poor results for O's, its still my fault, not others. so i hav decided not to let myself live in regret. i gonna grab this chance and do my best! dun wanna let my parents down. guess its the final sprint, aft O's i can enjoy all i wan for a really really long time. so i guess i gonna study hard, but not like crazy! wahaha!

had a little talk with yj, n i realised even more that studying is not exactly boring if u dun tink that way. i guess it hav its fun too. yj doesnt feel that studying is very hard n difficult, so i think i should try not to hate studyin so much. i only hav to work hard for about 2 months or so n i'll be free! looking forward to freedom day!

okay, aft the talks n prayers, im stronger than be4, n shall do my best.

shall cheer for one another! lets help one another k? maybe i should try to like going to skool since i may not be able to after a few months time. i will miss my frens a lot! n although im pretty sure i wont end up in the same skool as my intelligent frens=D, i guess i shall try my best too. n i should cherish them. omg, y do i feel as if im nvr gonna c them ever agn?

so thats all for 2dae, pray that all of u out there will trust in Jesus's guidance and work hard! gambatte!

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 8:49 PM

watched finish my girl! its sooOO nice!!!!! cried a lot n laughed a lot! hahas, its e best drama ever! i love korean dramas! the OSt r nice too!

okay, gonna switch back to study mood now! lol, so hard ehh! anywae, i got back my phys results. 58 ! its so lousy. n i tink gonna pull down too coz alot ppl get distinction. got back chem pract also. 27/40 onli. aiyaya! i tink my results will jus get worse n worse. i dun hav confidence! but dun wanna let e bad results affect me! i still have to study hard for O's. its my onli chance!

lets c, tml theres e last chem pract! teacher said it is very impt! hope no one will be absent tml! my girl rocks!!!!!!!

these few days hav been watching my girl, so theres nthn much to blog abt my life hahas. okay, gonna end here! watch my girl it rocks! n too, deathnote movie gonna be released on 19 oct! be sure to watch! or u shall face the wrath of me! wahahaha!

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 10:30 PM

prelims r finally over! but O's are coming! wahahaha. my heart is in pain agn! amaths ppr2 i got careless mistake agn! i did the qns found ans but forgot to state the ans! n i actually use (0.5 x 6 x 4) for the integration qns! its supposed to be 16! i found 16 but i wrote 6! arr!!!! I M SO CARELESS! i must change this carelessness! so hard lehx!

tml theres school! cant go off early too! haiz so bored! n got chem pract! plz make mi like practicals! i dunno y i dun like. guess i jus dun hav sense of curiosity lol. we all feel like skippin tmr. but tink cannt, coz got pract, maybe will go thro the prelim ppr.

im so afraid to look at my results, i feel it will be bad. i hope i can enter the 3months course for jc. coz ppl kept encouragin mi to go jc, higher pay? tuition teacher also say jc easier to find a job we really wan. lol then im afraid it will be too hard. feel tt i wont pass A levels. so if can enter 3 mnths course at least can try to adapt c if it suits mi. but i think there's not much hope le.

pray that i will get good results for prelims!!

was watchin my girl. its funny! hahas. ya n GOONG is gonna be broadcasted on Ch U! be sure to watch its nice! hahas! yul so shuai n shin goon so cute! hyorin so pretty n chaegyung so cute! must watch! its funny lol.

i tink the 7pm show also quite nice haha. funny sia. hai jus now i got insomnia agn. wanted to take an afternoon nap but just cant fall asleep. so lousy! then decided not to slp le, i exercised instead! wahahaha. i used the hula hoop n spin spin spin n do situps for abt 25mins! hahas. im gonna kip it up! every week 5 days exercise 20-25mins! good way for cutting weight, haha but i will not slack when i eat! not gonna be on diet! =) exercising is still the healthiest!

chattin with milo! hahas i wanna drink milobeng! hahas talkin craps with sheen. hai, im startin to get a really negative side of after O's. go poly i might be alone, but go jc i may not be able to take it. arr, wad to do?

currently in a dilemma. but decided not to tink too much first. shall wait aft O's. wahahaha.

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 6:08 PM

yay i finally finish studyin amaths! finally! tml amaths exam then i can sleep!!!!! so happy! sleepin is such a joy! but still, i tend to get insomnia sometimes =( lalala, i got to know a girl in msn who really loves high school musical like me! lol! it rocks man! quite fun toking to her lol.

after the geog exam 2dae went to sp. caught audrey n alvin! wahahaha. then we ate mac breakfast, it was so filling! then sl was theory-ing. so lame sl! then eat talk eat talk i was soooo tired! headache! so then wen home n then i studied amaths! actually wanted to sleep. but then, wanted to finish studyin first. =) yay n finally paid off!

n i can watch my girl from now on! vv, momo, sl said its really very nice! looking forward!

though i should be happy that prelims r almost over, i still feel really stressed. maybe tts coz O are jus 1 month away, cant really rest much. so sian ar, study n study.

haiz.

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 4:02 PM

amaths ppr1 was quite okay 2dae. but still, i was too careless! i actually forgot the substitution for the log. gosh! how can i forget?! its such a pity!

after the exam was discussing the qns with sheen, sl, yj, jas n hj. lol, sheen really dunno how to do the trigo identity! haha so funny coz be4 e exam she was tryin so hard to rmb the formulas, ended up she really dunno. n sl actually differentiate the eqns instead of intergrating them. then sheen n i was clapping to honour her. lol so funny.

the sl told mi when she was doing the log qns, she was tinking tt i will surely noe how to do, n was like "scolding" mi. hahas, then i told her i also dunno how to do! realised we all r so careless! lol, nvm we can learn from our mistakes ar! wads more, sheen said, "its okay! we can scored full marks for ppr2!" lol, laughed till i drop.

it was a surprise, 2dae's atmosphere was rather fine. we were all really happy. yupp n laughin abt jas's gangster n virtuous personality. yea, maybe the tense mood for exams r finally going to be over. 2 more pprs to go!

reached home n studied geog. i tink i didnt really study well, quite worried la.

overall, 2dae is quite a nice day! wonder if wanna go out with wanlin they all on wed. coz maybe buyin elaine's prezz. oh ya, the choir farewell function's on fri! looking forward!

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 8:09 PM

was practicing amaths integration n diff. gosh, so hard. my brain is jumbled up! my head is all messed up! arrr!

still tmr amaths ppr 1. must get A ar! how to get A in this way. n too, i wonder y i keep falling sick during exam period. too lousy. hard to concentrate too.

but still, looking forward to prelims ending. then can watch the host, n go out play sia. ya, n eat, buy, eat, buy lol.

okay, no time to chat much. gonna go study!

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 2:05 PM

3 more papers left. my maths was so careless! my heart is piercing with pain ar! i tink most ppl feels tt maths is easy, yea, careless mi. studied physics until 11pm ytd. then continued to study geog for 1 n a half hr. i studied like wad. my eyes was so painful n my head were really heavy, felt like sleeping. still, coz i need geog to help me, so i can't sleep!

so sad nia. still didnt get to study much, n i tink i can't get A for geog ppr 1 le. gonna fight with all i hav for ppr2. physics was not as hard as those miss lem set be4. but its still hard! at least completed the pprs, ehh?

okay, so 2dae wonder if i can study much coz my headache's really sickening. i feel as if my head is gonna explode anytime. blash! n it exploded-.- hahas, jus now played racing games with milo sheen. was really fun! but she always win mi! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! next time i will win her hehe.

haiz, dunno wad to do. n there's tuition hw haven finish yet. so many things to do n time is so little! if only we humans only need 5 hrs of sleep daily! then we can save up lots more time! k, that is just a fantasy! gosh sl the soil gonna rebuke mi for this! the snoring piggyy!!!!

2dae went to sp with milo n jelly to sp. then milo kept sayin cheat cheat cheat lol. ppl tuition also cheat, do tys also cheat. lols, lame but funny. then hang around for a while be4 going home. were reading magazines n luaghin, so funni sia. yea n we got 'silenced' by a girl haha. n i found out tt i m so lack of common sense! the maths qns! i got no common sense at all!

then came home n played n chat until now! currently fightin a war with sl! no time for comments!




* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 6:08 PM

ytd studied hist. until now, left 3 chaps or maybe 2 to study. dunno if wanna study cold war or not. im afraid that i wun hav enough time for maths. coz i must score for maths ppr2 le, since the first one already minus at least 10 marks. hist is my hope!!! hope tt i wun flunk it too if not im really doomed. hmm, geog too..

wonder if i should do maths tys or just read the maths notes bk? which would be beta? hahas, i dunno!!!! c whether later got time anot. yea i tink after prelims we only hav abt 1 month to the O's written pprs. time flies so fast, it feels like ytd that we just came into phs. i will miss phs, choir, my frens, the teachers. i wan to be a student foreva. but reality is harsh!

after those career guidances, feel that adult life is so complicated n boring n so not fun. -.-!

i tink i shall do my very best for prelims, then after tt can go celebrate. i hope i will celeb happily n not worried for my results! fight till the end!! haha aja aja fighting!

i wonder how everyone feels abt the prelims. i feel tt im the only one feeling depressed n difficult, yet all others seems to do really well. yea wad happened to the cheerful girl be4 prelims?! time is against mi!

quote fomr mvp : " bu yao qing yan fang qi, fou zhe dui bu qi zi ji!"

yea. BRING IT ON!!






* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 2:21 PM

prelims sucks! wad to do, wad to do. i tink i may flunk chem, ss wasnt enough time too. n wads worse, maths like so mani say its quite okay, but i was short of time! was rushing throughout. n i left 3 pages blank. im crazy.

really worried. chem, all those we anticipated will not come out, came out. n i forgot a lot. wads wrong with my brain exactly, i cant seem to rmb things well. come in n go out. -.-

just now played game in com. gonna study now. wish me all the best! sigh*

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 1:09 PM

2dae my cousins n i was really angry.. at first was quite okae, myrin, cher, jiaming came my hse. cher n me were studying, while sis n myrin were watching youtube shows. then bro went out to sp with jiaming. then study study. study study.
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then my 1st uncle came. he was here for a bad purpose. he wanted to scold jiaming. when jiaming came home, he started scolding him without getting the facts rite. he kip scolding n forcing him, n said he did not ask permission from his parents to come here.
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in between sobs, jm retorted n said that he got his parents' permission. yet, tt uncle doesn't understand at all. he scolded him really loudly. okae, i cant study. coz it was so disrupting. all of us felt so angry at him, n pitied jm.
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he is really unreasonable. i know he is afraid of jm turning bad but dun he realise that forcing him in this way, even forcing him into tears can make him go astray easier? our heart really hurt a lot for jm.
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even my mother do not wan to help us. she is actually afraid of him. if only i had power like my parents, i would protect jm n stop him from insulting him. so the onli thing we could do when jm was being scolded was to defend him. cher n mi kept talking back to uncle making his sentences ironic.
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so firstly, he said jm was bad. n jm cried. n he actually scolded him for cryin saying wad how can a guy cry? n jm said he is pressing n forcing him until he cant take it. yet he kept on scolding n tink he's in the right. jm is just a 12 yr old child k? can't he even cry? uncle asked if he is pressing him continuously n loudly. its obvious he is pressing him. bro then retorted n said, " yes u r pressing him." cher n i was so happi n we laughed.
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jm was supposed to go with my bro to the christian gathering. then he didnt make it coz he came too late. then uncle was scolding him saying that he lied to his parents. he didnt ok? its only coz he came too late. he asked where we have christian meetings n jh said sometimes at bk or mac or wad. then he started saying wad should't go to these kind of christian meetings. wad, get caught by police or wadever. okay, maybe he's concerned abt us. but isn't it outrageous? i was so angry, how dare he dun wan them to go to christian meetings. n i was so angry that i told him, christian meetings r not illegal.
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then he started saying wad more than 3 person the police will catch. then cher said to him, " is after 11 wad.." then he said that if the police not happy with ur look, then will interrogate u. n i was like, -.- then said, " then everyone will get caught." then cher n mi laughed agn lol. keith also helped us out. but he lost to the debate with uncle. uncle even slapped jm 3 times on his cheeks. he hav no rights. n cher wanted to sue him lol. was really angry.
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then uncle scolded jm say y he kip crying, say "crying means u very ke lian rite?" then jm said that uncle doesn't even understand wad he is toking abt. then bro said, " dun understand means dun understand la." then cher n i laughed agn lol.
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jm made it clear that he has his parents' permission. yet he kept finding excuses to scold jm. haiz i was so angry until i cry lor! then he scold scold scold, we retorted n retorted. when things finally calmed down, bro say ,"lets watch tv" to help jm.
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then slowly, uncles started scolding jm agn. it was like a repeating cycle.. i didnt study well coz his voice was so loud. so cher n mi went to the rm to study. then we were saying, " here so noisy lets go to a quieter place." lol. was laughing out loud.
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finally he was gone! n we were all singing songs of celebrations. haiz, although i noe maybe he does it out of concern, but i feel he's too domineering. n i dun like bossy ppl. i dun like him forcing n interrogating jm like he's a criminal. i really dun like. n i dunno how to love him. its really hard. just have to pray hard. my mood was ruined 2dae. plus i didnt study much in the afternoon. it was really wasted.
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still 2dae got a good news. sun is my cousin's (jm big sis) 21st bdae! but gosh, wad should i do?mon is prelims. i nid to study. but i dun wan to bang seh her on her bdae. esp. since its her 21st bdae. wad should i do? n she's really close to us! she's actually the one who taught mi abt life. not to go astray n thingy from her personal experience. she gav mi a new outlook in studies n gav mi the strength to continue to study hard while i was almost giving up. i wan her to hav a fantastic celeb. she's really a great cousin!
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i guess wad i can do is to use more time for studying n try to find time for her celebration. i tink 2dae my entry too emotional liao.. abit strange lol.
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okay, shall trust in Jesus! He will guide us! jia you! cya!

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 10:32 PM

woke up in the morn n oh gosh, my throat was hurtin terribly. i guess it is because of my lack of wtr ytd where i onli survived on 1 water bottle for the whole afternoon. n then bought another for tuition at nite. it hurts a lot!
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then told my sis to hunt for her present. haha kept in under my bag. she found it n opened it. it was a precious moments bk. then celebrated her bdae. took out the cake n lighted the candle. 10 yrs old! okay, then i took a video of the celebration. it was quite fun! when i wanted her to blow the cake, she actually shouted, " i wanna make a wish!" okay, it was loud. bro was pretending to wan to kiss her while i was recording. lol it was so funny. when sis realised she practically jumped off the chair! then was making fun of her while she was making her wish, adding some comments, disruptin her wish. lol. then she stopped halfway n shouted agn haha.
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then cut the cake n we ate. i didnt enjoy it much, coz my throat was hurtin! yuck, i hope i will be well for tmr's pract exam! lalala, feel like watching my lovely samsoon. should i watch or sleep?! okay, i tink i shall watch.
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okay, back to the celeb. yupp n i took a good look at her presents. i saw photoframe, bear rug, lots more n BARBIE DOLL! gosh, shes really a kid haha. wonder y they like to play barbie. yupp n when i was young i used to like it too! thinking back, was i crazy? lol.
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then practiced maths circle properties. then studied ONE chap of phy only. followed on by chem pract revision. i had to study while i was unwell. i have decided to kip myself healthy le. esp since exams r close! its very very impt!
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so tml early in the morn have to wake up! God bless us all as we take our pract exam! im worried!
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nowadaes i hav quite a lot of qns. a bit strange la. decided not to think so much le. but still, i wonder m i gonna survive n get good results for O's? its like so near. haizz. i dunno how to study well for a lot of subjects. n after the eng prelims, im starting to get worried all abt my eng agn. what is happening to me?! i really wan to score for eng, i dun wanna waste my parents' money for the tuition. i tink time is really against us.
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theres only one thing to do now. thats to study hard. but i feel i have lots more worries...

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 9:52 PM

another nice day! woke up at ard 10 plus then got a call from sl to hurry mi so as to book spaces. *tried* hard to be faster, lol. then went out to causeway lib, yj, sl, daph n xq was already there. so was practicing maths. then were talking crap abt alvin n aud haha.
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so later in the afternoon aud came. n we wen out to causeway for lunch at abt 2. then alvin joined in. waited for a long time for my lunch. pity mi! then went back to lib n continued to study. haha were joking around occasionally. we were all listening to our own songs while aud n alvin was listening to FM.
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then all of a sudden, aud n alvin looked shocked, with their mouth hanging open. then slowly took out their earpiece, n aud said the news abt crocodile hunter! gosh! it was a terrible accident. was feeling rather shocked. realised that life can be lost in just a flash. yeahh, we should learn to cherish.
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so overall studied quite a lot. quite fun also. yeahh n tmr is sis bdae! looking forward! gosh haven done the card yet =P
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then went home, n watched samsoon. haha the piggy is so cute! that is the part i love most abt the show! LoL. hey guys must watch samsoon! it is funny! i love the way samsoon dance! haha lets dance like her!

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 11:29 PM

another day has passed! 2dae had mac breakfast, it was so filling that i skipped my lunch! ohh did i mentioned i ate at about 10 plus? went out to sun plaza 2dae with cher, myrin, my sis n my bro. waited for myrin, cher n sis to eat their lunch while bro n i went to buy the bubble tea from sweets talk.. glad that we wont have to buy tt expensive one from rockery since there's this new shop =D
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then shopped around coz myrin n cher wanted sis to choose her bdae present. in the end she chose a cute bear photoframe! it was quite nice n im sure she was really happy =) talked a lot n joked. then finally split up n went home.
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when i reached home, arrrgghhh, practice my maths from the tys! lol. did finish the trigo chap, skipped a lot of qns though.. =P not as challenging as the sec 4 textbook de.. then decided to do transformation for abt 1 hr.
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due to my carelessness last time, i lost my maths tys. so took sl's one n photocopied it.. guess wad? when i turned to the transformation chap i realised sl did her workings on the book! the graph was full of drawings.. so i cant do anything! didnt know wad to do.
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in the end had to phone yj. since tmr going out, bai tuo her to help mi photocopy 3 pages of the transformation chap. yay yj rocks!
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end up doing little 2dae. but its okae! tmr will be a better dae!
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tmr going causeway library with daph, sl, yj, xq, audrey n alvin 2 study.. then at 7.45pm gonna attend english tuition. the teacher changed the slot for once coz she wasn't free ytd. until 9.45 sia! so fun! lol
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so thats all for 2dae! be sure to tune in for more *adventures* of my life~!

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 9:21 PM

nice week of sept hols ahead! yeaa~ hav to study :o these few days have been studying.. but not all day long haha.. i feel that im quite slack.. like 2dae, i did so little maths qns.. wonder y did i take such a long time for just 1 qns.. it doesn't look easy for mi to get B for maths...
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on thur went to causeway lib with yj n sl n practiced physics while listening to songs. its really a great way of studying. it actually makes mi less focused on " i must study hard" , but make mi more relax.. n i realised my stress is not tt high, thus i can actually study quite well.. maybe u guys out there can try out this method! =)
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realised tt at this kind of time, more n more ppl r gettin depressed abt their studies n even their lives.. its okay! after our O's, we can enjoy ourselves n make up for e lost entertainment while studying! lets do our best 2gth k? God will guide us! n we all have our supports [ frens, families n a lot more!]. just tink of the joy u will feel when ur hard work is paid off! gambatte!
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5sept, tue is my sis bdae! haha already bought a present for her! so happi! i tink she will like it=) wonder wad kind of celebration to giv her? maybe a cake would be good? yupp n gonna make her a card! but so sad cant celebrate long as the next day got practical exam! nid to study for it. but still feel really excited abt her bdae! hope there will be joy on her face when she open up the present!
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we r all in this 2gth! jia you frens! *)

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 8:22 PM