Friday, September 08, 2006
2dae my cousins n i was really angry.. at first was quite okae, myrin, cher, jiaming came my hse. cher n me were studying, while sis n myrin were watching youtube shows. then bro went out to sp with jiaming. then study study. study study.
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then my 1st uncle came. he was here for a bad purpose. he wanted to scold jiaming. when jiaming came home, he started scolding him without getting the facts rite. he kip scolding n forcing him, n said he did not ask permission from his parents to come here.
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in between sobs, jm retorted n said that he got his parents' permission. yet, tt uncle doesn't understand at all. he scolded him really loudly. okae, i cant study. coz it was so disrupting. all of us felt so angry at him, n pitied jm.
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he is really unreasonable. i know he is afraid of jm turning bad but dun he realise that forcing him in this way, even forcing him into tears can make him go astray easier? our heart really hurt a lot for jm.
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even my mother do not wan to help us. she is actually afraid of him. if only i had power like my parents, i would protect jm n stop him from insulting him. so the onli thing we could do when jm was being scolded was to defend him. cher n mi kept talking back to uncle making his sentences ironic.
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so firstly, he said jm was bad. n jm cried. n he actually scolded him for cryin saying wad how can a guy cry? n jm said he is pressing n forcing him until he cant take it. yet he kept on scolding n tink he's in the right. jm is just a 12 yr old child k? can't he even cry? uncle asked if he is pressing him continuously n loudly. its obvious he is pressing him. bro then retorted n said, " yes u r pressing him." cher n i was so happi n we laughed.
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jm was supposed to go with my bro to the christian gathering. then he didnt make it coz he came too late. then uncle was scolding him saying that he lied to his parents. he didnt ok? its only coz he came too late. he asked where we have christian meetings n jh said sometimes at bk or mac or wad. then he started saying wad should't go to these kind of christian meetings. wad, get caught by police or wadever. okay, maybe he's concerned abt us. but isn't it outrageous? i was so angry, how dare he dun wan them to go to christian meetings. n i was so angry that i told him, christian meetings r not illegal.
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then he started saying wad more than 3 person the police will catch. then cher said to him, " is after 11 wad.." then he said that if the police not happy with ur look, then will interrogate u. n i was like, -.- then said, " then everyone will get caught." then cher n mi laughed agn lol. keith also helped us out. but he lost to the debate with uncle. uncle even slapped jm 3 times on his cheeks. he hav no rights. n cher wanted to sue him lol. was really angry.
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then uncle scolded jm say y he kip crying, say "crying means u very ke lian rite?" then jm said that uncle doesn't even understand wad he is toking abt. then bro said, " dun understand means dun understand la." then cher n i laughed agn lol.
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jm made it clear that he has his parents' permission. yet he kept finding excuses to scold jm. haiz i was so angry until i cry lor! then he scold scold scold, we retorted n retorted. when things finally calmed down, bro say ,"lets watch tv" to help jm.
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then slowly, uncles started scolding jm agn. it was like a repeating cycle.. i didnt study well coz his voice was so loud. so cher n mi went to the rm to study. then we were saying, " here so noisy lets go to a quieter place." lol. was laughing out loud.
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finally he was gone! n we were all singing songs of celebrations. haiz, although i noe maybe he does it out of concern, but i feel he's too domineering. n i dun like bossy ppl. i dun like him forcing n interrogating jm like he's a criminal. i really dun like. n i dunno how to love him. its really hard. just have to pray hard. my mood was ruined 2dae. plus i didnt study much in the afternoon. it was really wasted.
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still 2dae got a good news. sun is my cousin's (jm big sis) 21st bdae! but gosh, wad should i do?mon is prelims. i nid to study. but i dun wan to bang seh her on her bdae. esp. since its her 21st bdae. wad should i do? n she's really close to us! she's actually the one who taught mi abt life. not to go astray n thingy from her personal experience. she gav mi a new outlook in studies n gav mi the strength to continue to study hard while i was almost giving up. i wan her to hav a fantastic celeb. she's really a great cousin!
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i guess wad i can do is to use more time for studying n try to find time for her celebration. i tink 2dae my entry too emotional liao.. abit strange lol.
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okay, shall trust in Jesus! He will guide us! jia you! cya!* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_
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